Fuck
What to do, what to do

I'm tired
Not tired like I ran a mile, but tired like there's too much shit on my mind
I'm stressed

I wish I could really just get away by myself.
No fighting, no negative confrontations
Just me

Lately the line between right and wrong has been blurred.
What IS right and wrong?
Is it wrong for me to want to leave home so bad?
Or is it right and normal for me to want to go out and spread my wings?
Should I feel bad that I wanna do my thing after being smothered and treated like a kid for 20 years?

Is it wrong that I'm mad that my boyfriend is moving in with a guy friend and another girl?
ANOTHER GIRL
I dont give a shit if shes just a friend, that makes me uncomfortable
I trust you, I just dont trust bitches
& Should I not feel bad that he's moving in with them and not me?
I mean, I know I'm not ready..but you couldn't wait for me?

Ur guy friend is not even a good friend.
I don't like him, I don't like his girlfriend (who will most likely be over a lot) and I don't like that his girlfriend is friends with your ex.

Is that wrong of me?

Am I being selfish?

Then I desperately need to get a new job and start going back to school.
Fuck I haven't even finished paying for last semester yet

I can barely even pay my own bills now

I'm exhausted
For real

I need a break from reality.
I just need something to lift me up a little

Fuck

I really am tired of fighting about irrelevant shit and people..

Parents are always hard to deal with at some point right?
What about dealing with them all the time?!
I mean..wouldn't it be tiring?
Everyday it's something

It's hard watching someone you love live this way.
Watching such a destructive relationship just get more worse is hard.

Just makes me realize how lucky I am to have a mom like I do.

I'm here to support my love in whatever he does though.

If your reading this, babe, you're my everything.
As cliche as this sounds, I'll never leave you.
Forever and ever.

Do u ever see someone your with talking to someone else better looking than you?

It's gay

I know it shouldn't mean anything and probably doesn't...but still..

Something in me just thinks that he's thinking more about her than me.

My head just thinks too much

'maybe hes gonna leave me for her
Maybe I'm not prettier than her
Maybe he really does hate my bun and he's gonna leave me if I keep wearing my hair that way
Maybe he wants me to have more tattoos
Maybe he wishes I played video games
Maybe i should work out, im getting fat'

And than I feel all insecure about everything :(
I wish I wasn't like that
Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm not good enough...not sometimes, I should say I feel like that a lot.
It's always 'if I wasn't this and if I was that then maybe I could keep him forever'

Gahh

Bedtime with an insecure mind

Ttfn

Does it make sense for a couple to get similar tattoos, same phrase, but it represents something completely different to both of them?

'Forever and ever' to me represents my boyfriend and our relationship and only that.

'Forever and ever' to my boyfriend means something else. It's been his phrase before I was even around so for us..I should for me to get it tattooed would be ridiculous because it has nothing to do with me even tho he says it's 'our thing'

The fact that he's still getting it even though I'm not clearly proves that its his.

If I were to get that and people asked about it to me it's about us. Me and Jake whereas to Jake it means something else. Something that doesn't even involve me whatsoever.

That's dumb right

I'd feel like mine clearly is for him but his is clearly for himself.

So I changed my mind.
No tattoos for me.


Ttfn.

Ahhhhhhhhh
Guess who's back?!?!?

So a LOT has happened since I've been on here.
I originally decided to stop blogging on here to start blogging on tumblr, but I found myself more reblogging photos than writing about things.
Soo long story short, I'm coming back to my blogspot.

I've missed writing on here sooo much and a bunch has happened.
In the time I haven't been with you guys I ended a relationship and got into a new one..

The best relationship I've ever and will ever have.
It feels good to know that there's someone there for you when you need them..someone that loves and cares for you.
We talk all day everyday..on the phone, texting, FaceTime, or just hanging out and I don't even mind.
I don't mind that he's the only one I talk to or think about because he's the only one I wanna ever give my attention to.

Anyway...more at a later time

Toodles :)

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Craving those blueberry suedes.
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Funny guy lol but everything he says is very true
Take a min to watch, even if its just 10 mins

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Hey guys :)

If you're a friend of on Facebook, you already know that I got my tragus pierced this past weekend. :))
If you're not my friend, now you know.
It didnt hurt as bad as I thought it was gonna be!
I'll have video up soon of me getting my piercing and my friend B gettin her industrial piercing.
Heres some pics for now.





Anyway off that...

So its been really gettin on my nerves lately, people on FB
or anywhere really
sayin "i get money. money over bitches blah blah blah..."
I get money, but I dont have to say shit.
People know I get money by how I carry myself, how I look and present myself.
Who cares if you gettin money, lots of people are
You just wasted 5 seconds of your life saying you get money
when you could be doing something productive
grrrrr

My brother left this last weekend for a trip
He just got back today but now hes leaving again tomorrow :(
Ima miss him
especially since I have no one these days

Anyway...IM ON SOME NEW STUFF LATELY

Get ready people
Its gonna be a whole new me, whole new attitude, look, and everything.
I swear

ttfn
-trece

Lauren McKnight

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I wish she didn't cancel her Denver show :(








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GAHHHHHH

So a lot of things have really been on my mind lately.

You know its bad when your supervisor takes you aside and asks if theres something wrong.
Honestly I didnt think it was that noticeable that I was unhappy. Hm.
I feel I get more unhappy with each day.
Its pretty sad.
Mostly its just about stuff at home.
What direction Im expected to go in and what direction I WANT to go in.
Questioning myself a lot.
I just need to sit and think about how I can begin to make myself happy.
What things I need to do and how I can get there ya know.

Ex's tryna get at me again, but what else is new right?
They always think you're gonna fall into their trap,
fall for the "sweet" things they say;
"If I'm over you, why do I keep coming back to you"
Please....stfu
You dont know what you're talking about.
Just because you see me in person somewhere and see I'm lookin good as hell, doesnt mean you miss me and want me back
Maybe for the moment
But they next day you're not gonna care

I guess they're always gonna do this to me, and everytime they you, ima think the same thing I always think; You're full of shit.
Boys are stupid.

Recently dropped some friends.
Oh well.
Not much to say about that, but I didnt care as much as I thought I did about them.

UHHHHHH
I've been workin myself to death at workin tryna get this money.
I have goals and I'm tryna meet them, so this is what I gotta do I guess.

Recently found out that Drake is coming on Nov. 2, my bday.
Tix go on sale July 31st
Presale tix on sale now.
I'll be getting mine soon, as soon as I figure out my money situation for the month.
How epic would it be to see Drake on my bday right?!
So like I said Nov. 2nd at the Wells Fargo Theatre in Denver at 8 :)

That is all.
ttfn
-trece

Usher - There Goes My Baby

I wish this song would play everytime I'm out in public while I walk sexily in slow motion lmao
Like my theme song LOL